Saba’s Transcendence from Objectification to Self-nullification: A Feminist Critical Discourse Analysis of Meri Zaat Zarra-e-Benishan

Abstract

Aim of the study: This study examines the unique characterization of Umera Ahmad's intangible ideas through the journey of Saba in the novel Meri Zaat Zara-e-Benishan. Saba is a woman with an independent mind, not only in regards to the world around her but also with her own personal decisions. Her ambition to pursue higher education and her desire to think and reason for herself are not acceptable to her society.

Methodology: This patriarchal society expects women to adhere to the predetermined norms and standards and to remain silent in the face of injustice. Despite the societal pressure to treat Saba as an object with no autonomy or ability to think or reason, she refuses to succumb and instead opts for self-nullification. She refuses to be reduced to an object with no rights or power, preferring to maintain her identity and not be stripped of her individuality.

Findings: She demonstrates her courage and strength of character in the face of adversity and shows that she is not one to be easily subjugated. This is mirrored in the title of the novel, Meri Zaat Zara-e-Benishan, which is a reference to the concept of self-nullification of the ego found in several religions including Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism, and Islam.

Conclusion: This concept is also related to the Platonic concept of 'bittul ha'yesh' "I am but dust and ashes" (Genesis: 18: 27). These are experiences of the inner self that turn self into nothingness. Saba’s mystical experiences enable her to achieve self-annulment by negating her ego.